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Full Moon in Taurus

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Full Moon in Taurus

Themes: wealth, security, self-esteem, self-worth, values, sensuality, practicality, commitment, connecting with the earth, physical senses, beauty

A Full Moon is typically about illuminating light onto areas of our lives that may need some attention, reaching a goal we’ve been working toward or finding closure in an area of our lives. Some signs may feel the effects more profoundly while others on a more subtle, gradual note as these energies can unfold over the next few months. Check out your Sun, Moon and Rising (the most accurate) to check out which house this Full Moon is transiting for you.

 

Aries (2nd House)-You may make a decision to transition from one job to another as you’re coming into alignment with what you truly value. An opportunity may come your way that will provide you with more fulfillment and boost your sense of self-worth when it comes to the skills and talents that you posses. You may receive a new job, promotion or raise. Tie up any loose ends surrounding your self-esteem especially if it’s taken a hit in the past.

 

Taurus (1st House)-It’s time to release any of those old ways of being as a light is being shined upon some habits you’ve outgrown. You’re moving in a new direction with a more clear sense of who you are in the world. This may be a time where you want to revamp you wardrobe or get a makeover. Whatever changes you make should fare well for you.

 

Gemini (12th House)-You may receive some insight into some of your subconscious patterns and how they may affect you and your relationships. The 12th House is all about karma. You may evaluate ending an important connection you feel you’ve outgrown. Some relationships are seasonal so accept the experience and lessons for what they are. A spiritual advisor or practice may be of great assistance right now. 

 

Cancer (11th House)-You may be evaluating the value of your social circle around this time. Are you being appreciated in your friendships and group associations? If not, you may want to branch out to connect with more like minded individuals as you may have the desire to work towards a bigger goal with the people you associate with. This Full Moon can provide you with insight into how you can practically achieve some of these big picture visions and dreams.

 

Leo (10th House)-You may finally receive the recognition you deserve in your career. People are noticing you and the influence that you have in the world. It’s time to release any notions of you being undeserving of success. Any fears surrounding this may very well be the reason you aren’t getting the breakthrough you want. You may get some good advice from an authority figure about your next major career move.

 

Virgo (9th House)-It’s time to revamp your philosophies and expand your knowledge. You may get some good news about traveling for studies or a job opportunity. Spend some time in the moonlight over the next couple of days as you are likely to receive downloads from the Moon. This insight may give you a deeper understanding of your own spiritual urges and how you can align with your higher self. This is also a great time to release outdated beliefs that no longer serve the trajectory of your life.

 

Libra (8th House)-Expect the unexpected as you may randomly be gifted with money owed to you from a court case, government entity or through your partner. This house rules other people’s resources. You may receive insight into how you can get a little extra help from sources you may not usually turn to. The 8th house also rules transformation and healing. This may be a good time to reflect upon your psychological beliefs surrounding your sense of self worth and esteem. You may get an opportunity to do some healing around a traumatic experience of the past that may have affected the way that you value yourself and your beauty.

 

Scorpio (7th House)-Things may finally come to a head in a close relationship of yours. You are getting more clear about what you value in your relationships. This Full Moon can result in a relationship ending as you may conclude that your partner is not valuing you or the relationship. On the other hand, this may be a very sensual time for you and a significant other if the relationship is in a good place. Enjoy the pleasures that Taurus loves to indulge in. Order takeout and cozy up with your lover for an intimate night in.

 

Sagittarius (6th House)-You may get some clarity about constructive ways to improve your daily routines. This may be a good time to take on a new fitness regimen or diet especially if you’ve received any news about your health. Make sure you are valuing your body by taking care of it, getting adequate rest, and feeding it with nourishing foods. You may also receive a simple piece of advice that can make your daily affairs more streamline. It’s time to get organized if you’ve been all over the place.

 

Capricorn (5th House)-This Full Moon is shining light on how you can bring more pleasure, creativity and romance into your life. This is a great energy for social dating. A secret admirer may reveal their interest in you around this time. If you’re not too concerned with love matters this is a great time to come into the fullness of your heart’s expression. You may reevaluate the importance of following your heart (and your bliss) especially if you’ve neglected the things that matter to you most. This may also be a time in which you release a new project and receive recognition for it.

 

Aquarius (4th House)-Something may finally be culminating on the home front, Aquarians. Maybe you’re considering relocating or just sprucing up your current living environment. You are focused on creating more comfort in your home along with more harmonious interactions with your family. This time may shed light onto your emotional upbringing as a child. Were you taught to value and express your feelings or were you advised to just silently suffer? It’s time to re-evaluate your childhood conditioning and possibly any issues you’ve experienced with a mother figure.

 

Pisces (3rd House)-Siblings and your close community may be your top priorities around this time. You may consider partnering with these individuals on a project. There may be a lot of messages exchanged about ideas you would like to expand upon. The 3rd house also rules communication (reading, writing, public speaking). This may be a time in which you are encouraged to express more of your truth and what you find valuable. If you can, share your personal experiences in recognizing your own self worth as this can inspire those around you to do the same. Use your voice to be a beacon of light, Pisceans.

Finding Purpose.

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In July 2014, I attended my first Reiki session. I was in the middle of a spiritual crisis after recently experiencing a traumatic event just a few months prior. “If God put anyone through this, He would choose you because He knows you can handle it.” And handle it, I did. That's all I've ever known how to do—put on my brave girl face and swallow my fears. I've always had a nagging part of me that hates coming off as needy or weak, so it became second nature to sweep things under the rug and push ahead with life.

But this time was different.

I was exhausted from the weight of the fears I've stored in my body, my cellular memory. And that's where the Reiki came in. I randomly read about it through some Google ad. After doing some research I figured it would be worth the shot to rekindle the spark within my relationship with God. As much as I once enjoyed faithfully going to church every Sunday, my connection with God felt stale. “God, show yourself to me in a new way,” I prayed just a few days prior to attending the Reiki session.

When I arrived to the little house in EAV, I was greeted by a cherub-like man in his 30s with quite a few cars tip-toeing through the premises. I was led to a naturally lit room with a massage table, a couple of chairs, and a small desk. The walls were covered with vibrant artwork and a faint scent of incense lingered in the air. The Reiki practitioner briefly probed into my reason for being there. I told him about the spiritually crisis inducing experience that I had a few months prior to my session with him that day. He nodded his head in understanding, explained the Reiki process then guided me to the massage table to begin the session.

As I laid on the massage table for about 45 minutes swept away by the meditation music in the background, warms sensations hovered over my body as the Reiki practitioner guided the healing energy to me. In certain parts of my body I could feel a tingling, pulse which the practitioner described as normal. I was glad to know the process was working. Once the Reiki was finished, the practitioner relayed intuitive messages to me that he picked up on during our session. He told me that my throat, solar plexus and sacral chakras were out of balance—the reason due to childhood conditioning of sweeping things under the rug without addressing them. Familial patterns. I was amazed by some of the insights the practitioner had. To this day, I am grateful for the experience—the catalyst that introduced me to metaphysics, chakra healing, esoteric studies as well as the life-altering teachings of the late and great Louise Hay.

It's been 3 years since I began this new phase of my spirituality. There have been ups and downs, unpredictable twists and turns. My self-awareness has grown exponentially which in turn has given me a deeper understanding of others and the world around me. I embody more of my destiny every day as I feel myself moving closer in alignment with my higher self. I validate my feelings and give myself permission to express them in healthy ways. I understand this is a major aspect of my purpose in this life—to be a voice for my own experience which happens to resonate with others who can’t find the words to speak about their own. This is my gift—alchemizing my feelings into words that can provide a safe haven for the misunderstood, give rise to hope in the downtrodden, and to heal the weary bones of those that slave to prove their belonging in a world that deems them inadequate.

I pray, that through my words, you find acceptance, you are encouraged and you realize that you are enough.

Trust Issues.

The past few weeks of this Mercury Retrograde phase have rightfully so been spent on ruminations of ex lovers, unfinished business, and baggage the weight of a ball and chain. I’m all for reflection but looking into the mirror when it comes to some of my relationship patterns is a tad bit jaunting. Combine that with my recently peaked interest in a new guy on my radar and I’ve got a recipe for playing out the worst case scenarios for something so fresh that it doesn’t even warrant the “What are we?” conversation yet.

There was one incident in particular that recently brought attention to my looming trust issues. About a week ago, the new guy and I were texting about how horrible of a person I was for forgetting that I let my dog go outside for over an hour in the middle of the night. I usually wouldn’t trip but we’ve had a coyote problem in the neighborhood for the past few months. As potential bae attempted to appease my overreaction (while taking harmless jabs at how dramatic I was being), I decided to call him because my animation was too overwhelming for texting. 

I giddily pressed the “call” button on my phone and anxiously listened to several drawn out rings before the voicemail ensued. My mouth got clammy and my heart dropped as I hung up the phone. Unsettling thoughts whirled around in my mind. “We were just texting. Why wouldn’t he answer his phone? He must be over there entertaining another woman. I mean, it’s almost midnight on a Wednesday. What else could he be doing at this time?” The logical part of me tried to reason with myself… “Maybe he’s in the shower or eating or chopping it up with his roommate…Maybe…”

*my phone rang as potential bae’s name displayed across the screen* 

I heaved a sigh of relief after spending five, drawn out minutes completely engulfed in the matrix of “This Nigga Ain’t Shit”. He and I spent some time chatting about my misadventures of an aloof dog owner before we decided to go to sleep. After getting off of the phone with him, I couldn’t help but think about how quickly my mind jumped to the worst case scenario all because potential bae didn’t answer the phone as promptly as my somewhat demanding Aries nature expects. I’ve realized for a while that I’ve got some serious trust issues when it comes to the opposite sex and this scenario made it all the more evident that I’ve still got some baggage to let go of. 

At this stage in my life, I’m wise enough to understand the difference between discernment and projection. And how I sometimes get caught in this web of projecting my past experiences onto new ones. As cyclical as this healing work seems, I’m grateful for my growing awareness of myself in relation to others––especially when it comes to romantic partnerships. Awareness is a catalyst for healing if we choose to commit to the work––the most substantial part of that task being all of the releasing that must take place. We so easily detach ourselves physically from people, situations and experiences but those things often linger in our minds and hearts long after. 

If you’ve followed some of my recent posts, you’re familiar with my use of Yoni eggs. Ironically, after experiencing this subtle resurfacing of past emotional trauma, my Yoni egg supplier (Graceful Empowerment) had a sale for Black Obsidian eggs. Obsidian happens to be a powerful crystal that aids in releasing emotional blockages and built up traumas. I am well aware of how quickly and effectively the crystal works so I am excited to use it as a Yoni egg for continued, deeper healing. Stay posted for updates on my process. xo.

Self-Care is...

Photographer: Jordan Desamours

Photographer: Jordan Desamours

Self-care is picking up that old hobby you used to enjoy. 

Self-care is spending time with the people that you can be your most raw, unfiltered version of yourself with. 

Self-care is taking a long walk on Sunday morning morning, showing gratitude for God's creation. 

Self-care is doing that thing you've always wanted to do but have allowed doubt to stop you (no, not that thing about you wanting to rob a bank). 

Self-care is treating yourself to a concert ticket to see you favorite musician that's coming into town. 

Self-care is putting your to-do list on the back burner for just one day to sleep in a little later than usual. 

Self-care is walking around your house naked and drinking orange juice straight from the carton (please, don't share your germy OJ with anyone else). 

Self-care is indulging in your favorite foods without feeling guilty.

Self-care is finishing that really good book you started last year but never finished. 

Self-care is burning your favorite incense or candle. 

Self-care is wrapping yourself up in your favorite blanket and binge watching that TV show you like. 

Self-care is taking a sea salt bath with your favorite essential oils. 

Self-care is letting go of that relationship that causes you more pain than joy. 

Self-care is reaching out to that person that's been on your mind for a while. 

Self-care is taking a deep breath when you feel anxious or stressed out. 

Self-care is crying when you're sad or screaming when you're angry (screaming into a pillow is vastly underrated).

Self-care is not giving a fuck about external approval (or the lack thereof). 

Self-care is cuddling with your baby or your pet (which is also your baby).

Self-care is holding your lover's hand in silence. 

Self-care is listening to God's whisper in the breeze. 

Self-care is basking in the warmth of the sun. 

Self-care is looking up at the night sky, reminding yourself that you are made of stardust. 

Self-care is not being afraid to shine your light because the world needs more of you. 

 

What are your favorite acts of self-care? Feel free to comment below.

Womb Healing

A few weeks ago I received some insight from The Mother as I was meditating at my altar. These past several months have been full of endings both internally and externally. As I’ve swam through the depths of my subconscious I’ve come face-to-face with past experiences that have shaped the way I view relationships––specifically those of a romantic nature. 

I’ve had to be very candid with myself as to why I’ve repeatedly found myself in abusive or manipulative relationships with emotionally unavailable men, men dealing with addictions, and men that were always in need of deep spiritual healing. The majority of the men I’ve involved myself with were never able to provide me with the emotional connection I desire within a union. Most of them didn’t really give a damn about me outside of what I provided for them physically and even if they did find some kind of emotional safe haven in me it was always one-sided as I never felt like my emotional well-being mattered much in comparison to theirs. 

And every time a relationship would end I was left alone with my own heartache as well as the burdens of my past lovers. For those that are unfamiliar with metaphysics, women often carry emotional trauma and debris within our wombs. And not just our own emotional wounds but also the wounds of those that we allow into our sacred space through sexual connection. If you’re familiar with Christianity this concept can be associated with “soul ties”. 

Over the past several months, I’ve been focused on releasing these burdens that I carry in my sacred space. As I previously stated, I’ve connected with men that have deep emotional and spiritual wounds, sometimes with a false notion that I could heal them with my love and my body, that I could take their pain away. Little did I know, I slowly but surely started to fill my womb with a lot of turmoil, trauma, and distress without the full knowledge of how to transmute the energies or to completely rid myself of them. 

Back in January, I intentionally began a journey to reclaim the sacred space of my womb by releasing the energies of my past lovers as well as my own emotionally traumatic experiences. I had heard about the healing power of Yoni eggs from one of my fellow goddesses, Bri, that I’ve had the chance to connect with via Twitter and decided to purchase one to begin my womb healing journey (shoutout to Graceful Empowerment for my lovely Rose Quartz Yoni egg). 

After using it for the first time, I felt a huge energy shift. One night I found myself overcome with laughter and my heart felt like it was going to ascend out of my chest. I felt an intense rush of energy throughout my body and was confident that I was on the right path towards healing. About once or twice a month, I would use my Yoni egg after properly cleansing it and charging it in the moonlight. Not every experience was the same as that buoyant first time. Sometimes, I would feel waves of grief, sometimes anger, resentment. Whatever came up was embraced, never judged or criticized. 

With my most recent use of my Yoni egg, I received special instruction from Oshun about how to use my egg this time around. Yoni eggs are reusable after proper cleaning but this time around I was guided to dispose of my egg. At first, I doubted the guidance I received but then I was reminded to go with my instinct. Oshun went into further detail telling me that the energies absorbed in the egg would be too tough to just cleanse for reuse. I trusted her instruction although I was sad about parting ways with my egg that I bonded with the past several months. However, I was placed at ease when I recalled that I would be going to the ocean soon which would be a beautiful way for us to go our separate ways. 

This past weekend I traveled to Savannah, primarily for modeling purposes, but timing always has its way. Yesterday morning, I carried my Yoni egg wrapped in a white cloth to release it into the ocean, to release my emotional wounds and those that I carried for my past lovers, to release the disappointment of unmet expectations, to release the trauma of abuse and manipulation, to release the chaos, the grief, and all that has tainted my sacred space, to release and allow Yemaya to take up my burdens and the burdens of my past lovers, to wash over them––carrying our wounds out to sea and cleansing them in waves of salt water. 

Asé.

If you would like more information on Yoni eggs, visit @graceful_empowerment on Instagram. Also give my girl Bri, @fertilealchemy, a follow on Instagram to help you along your womb healing journey. 

Much love.